Work out work out eat righ eat right.

So that is my week. I have been great I went over my daily points by 1.5(I counted the Mojito even though I didn't drink it all) the day of the movie but I have not gone over since. I have worked out every day I haven't had to work. I ran a 5k today in 34 minutes. So I figure if I can do that on thanksgiving and even then just walk fast the last 2 miles I can definitely do this in under 1 hour.

I was so excited to go to weight watchers and step on the scale, till I read Jack's blog, and he was super good this week and only lost .3 pounds. I hope that this will not happen to me. I really want to hit 50 pounds lost, and even more I would like to see onderland.

No popcorn!

I did have a Mojito before though, but that is 3 points, and it wasn't that good I should have just ordered a glass of wine. You know what I did with the mojito didn't drink it. I didn't love it so I didn't drink it just because it was there. That is a new thing, not finishing my food and drinks. I think we are all programed to eat what we order, but now I realize no I shouldn't eat everything.

Before I started my journey I would wait on tables with skinny girls ordering really fatty meals, like chicken carbonara, that is 1700 calories and 120 grams of fat, they would eat some and not want it boxed. I never got that it was a waste of money they should eat it or at least take it home. I don't think that anymore, now If I splurge I will eat till I am full, and then the splurge is done, there will be no taking it home for later. I did that with the mojito I ordered something that is a splurge, didn't LOVE it so I didn't drink it.

I am feeling in control. I am getting a little nervous though, and a little excited, today at the gym I stepped on the scale in just my bra and underwear, and moved the levy to 200 and BAM that is what I weigh. I wonder if weight watchers will let me weigh myself in my bra and underwear. So I am a little nervous because if that is what I weigh, then I have to take pictures in my sports bra...I don't feel ready for that. But I still have till Tuesday!

Too popcorn or not....

So today like many desprate housewives I am going to see the New Moon premier with friends. I am a dork who loves the books, even though I do love Jacob so much more than Edward.

But before like most girls night out we are grabbing dinner, we haven't decided where so I know what I will order at, Chili's, Friday's, Olive Garden, those are the 3 places closest to the theater so I figure we will be hitting up one of them. But I am not sure that if you read far enough back and know my love of movie popcorn. I seriously could eat movie popcorn and only movie popcorn for the rest of my life, with butter of course. I will have to touch into my flex points to have that small movie popcorn, and to stay full for the day. I am working out today but that is to work off the cookie yesterday. If I didn't eat that cookie yesterday I would definatly get popcorn. But I really really really want to lose 2.2 pounds this week and I want to take zero chance that I won't. So that means staying on plan. And unfortunatly eating popcorn does not include that plan. So I guess I talked myself out of it. I want to be skinny more than I want Movie Popcorn. WOW that is a first.

So there it is this blogging worked today, I was able through this post decide that I will not eat Movie popcorn, tomorrow I will let you know if the smell wins and I stick with that plan=)

Old habits die slow=(

So for most of the 15 weeks I have been working at this I have went out after story time, we would go to Panera I love love the Fuji Apple chicken salad, it is a bit high in points, 10 points to be exact. But I know every Wednesday I will be eating that so I plan accordingly. Also every Wednesday Riley, and Addie split a meal, and a cookie, Addie never eats her half and Riley today didn't eat her half either today. Today before I knew it, I ate the cookie. So I really am not beating myself up for eating the cookie, because I do allow myself treats now and then. I am beating myself up because I didn't even want the cookie, it was a shortbread cookie, not my favorite, I also literally finished it before I even realized it.

I am not sure if this has happened to anyone else the surprise eating, eating something you never intended? Well when I came back home I tracked that cookie....350 calories 21 grams of fat! I could have eaten 3 100 calorie Chips Ahoy cookie packs, 2 skinny cow ice creams, 3 apples with a little peanut butter, instead of that 1 cookie that I didn't even want/enjoy.

This is a habit that I used to have one that I thought I controlled, mindless eating. The cookie will not ruin my day, but it does make me realize just as I feel things are under control....well it is still a day to day struggle.

Well I refuse to beat myself up about that, I just know that I have to do what I used to, if Riley doesn't eat something that looks good, I have to get it out of my sight, throw it away as soon as possible or if I want to take it with me for Ryan, I leave it in the car till he comes home.

The cookie will not win! I will work out 9 points tomorrow! I have a gym time set up, I will do 5 points there, then do 4 miles when Ryan gets home another 5 points there. Maybe that will teach me to not eat something I don't even want=)

Oh I did Pilate's today and wow that is hard, just when I start to feel better about myself I find out my stomach has no muscle, I could only do about 1/3 of the stomach exercise correct, the other times I had to "cheat."

Had a decent loss but....

Good news is I lost 2.6 pounds this week. Bad news is I have to lose 4.2 pounds this week to be under 200 when my parents get here. Good news though if i lose 2.2 pounds I will reach 50 pounds lost, half way to my goal weight.

So I think the good out ways the bad. Going to work hard this week everyday I am not working I will walk/run at least 4 miles. I will not use my flex or activity points. I will reach the 50 pounds loss, the being under 200 I will give it my all.

I also set my official goal weight at weight watchers, 152...100 pounds less than my first weigh in.

New motivation

So this will be a double post day. Today is weigh in and righ now I am avoiding the very large laundry pile that needs to be folded.

So the other day on face book a few of friends all decided we needed to lose weight. So we start a group that for the next 2 months who ever loses the largest percentage gets a small incentive from the other 3 ladies. As I expected I have the most to lose, by a ton. In fact one girl in our challenge weighs my goal weight!

The other part to this is all the women in this challenge I went to High School with. Now in High School I was the dork, I had serious issues, I wanted to be every ones friend to the point I ended up annoying people so no one wanted to be my friend. I was basically severely insecure and would try so hard that people didn't want to be around me. This isn't a pity party for that Katie because she wasn't an innocent, I would also inspire drama, and well I lied all the time about stupid idiotic stuff. So you get it, I was a huge dork, that doesn't have many fond high school memories. I will say it is strange I ended up married to the captain of the football team.

My whole point by telling you this is it is very strange for me to be in contact or even doing something like this with people from High School, now the ladies doing it with me were never my problem in fact they actually put up with me more than they should have. One woman even mentioned that I didn't have my maiden name out so she didn't even realize who I was. I did that on purpose, there is a period of my life I am embarrassed by, I am not that same Katie.

So to wrap it up I think I feel good that this little challenge I think it will help keep my momentum going, especially through the holidays. It also helps that former insecure High school self feel just a little involved, even if I am the fattest one.

Turkey trot in 2 weeks

Okay I am getting nervous about the turkey trot. I have been working on a running program that a fellow blogger sent me, But I still don't feel secure in it. When I signed up for it I wanted to finish it in less than 1 hour. I am not so sure that is a possiblity. I also wanted to run the entire thing. I can run 3 miles, but at the end feel totall drained, I am not so sure I can run all 5 miles.

So I mapped a 5 mile run around my house, I am going to do that 3 days a week, I also know when mile 1,2,3,4 and 5 is. So my goal is run 3 miles, walk fast 1 mile, and run the last 1 mile. I am shooting for 13-14 minute miles, so to do it all in 1 hour and 7 minutes. Completely doable, I probably will be able to do it in less, when I do my 3 miles I can do it in 37 minutes just over 12 minute miles, so that gives me 30 minutes to finish the last 2 miles.

I should have worked harder....grr, but no use looking back. I will just focus on the next 2 weeks!