Happy birthday to me
and MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hope everyone has a wonderful, safe, and happy Christmas. I will be gone for a bit but will be back to explain why I did not have a weigh in day this week.
Staying on track even today and tomorrow.
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
This is hard!
It is hard to choose the fish and not a giant hamburger with french fries.
It is hard to go to work on Saturday and not eat cream of chicken with artichoke soup.
It is hard to wake up in the morning get both girls ready and go to the gym.
It is hard to eat apple instead of chips.
It is hard to find good for you recipes that taste great too.
It is hard run when you feel like sitting on the couch.
It is hard to go grochery shopping and not buy some delicious baked good.
It is hard to not partake in the Sunday donut ritual.
There is so much that is still hard I still fight daily and will always. Somethings get easier with time, but the urge to binge eat is always there. There are times I still over eat, but atleast my house is filled with good otions so yes I can over eat but it is on apples with peanut butter, left over dinners, it is not ideal but it is better than oreos, donuts, and chips.
So everyday is a struggle, and somedays I win, and every week of this journey I have started I feel I won because I lost weight. I still beat myself up because I know I could do better, I did not track every day, and I have not worked out yet today.
I will continue on, but I am not always happy. I want to make Christmas cookies with Riley and have her decorate them, but I know if I do that I will eat half of them....so we don't=(
All these things are hard, but not as hard as it is to be fat!
It is hard to go to work on Saturday and not eat cream of chicken with artichoke soup.
It is hard to wake up in the morning get both girls ready and go to the gym.
It is hard to eat apple instead of chips.
It is hard to find good for you recipes that taste great too.
It is hard run when you feel like sitting on the couch.
It is hard to go grochery shopping and not buy some delicious baked good.
It is hard to not partake in the Sunday donut ritual.
There is so much that is still hard I still fight daily and will always. Somethings get easier with time, but the urge to binge eat is always there. There are times I still over eat, but atleast my house is filled with good otions so yes I can over eat but it is on apples with peanut butter, left over dinners, it is not ideal but it is better than oreos, donuts, and chips.
So everyday is a struggle, and somedays I win, and every week of this journey I have started I feel I won because I lost weight. I still beat myself up because I know I could do better, I did not track every day, and I have not worked out yet today.
I will continue on, but I am not always happy. I want to make Christmas cookies with Riley and have her decorate them, but I know if I do that I will eat half of them....so we don't=(
All these things are hard, but not as hard as it is to be fat!
Friday, December 18, 2009
Nope never going to eat like that again!
I would like to thank another one of my really good friends for this blog idea. I was talking to my favorite mommy friend, if your a mommy I am sure you have one, the other mommy who has little ones at home and knows what it is like to not have adult conversation for hours, so you talk pretty much every single day. Well this friend was talking to me about my weight loss, asking me if when I lose all the weight will I eat certain things again.
I had to tell her no never again will I ever eat like I used to! We were discussing eating out, and how with my new healthy life style it is no longer fun. There are 2 main reasons, eating out with a 2 almost 3 year old is a fight, keeping her entertained and happy is nearly impossible. The second reason is the biggest, I always know what I will eat before I walk in the restaurant door. What I get is usually one of the 3 healthy items, all which I could make better.
So talking about this my friend totally understood the first reason, but the second confused her, she wanted to know why I could not just sometimes cheat. I told her sure there will be times I go out and enjoy myself but I will never eat bacon cheese fries, or awesome blossom for appetizers, then some cheesy creamy sauce over pasta, and finish it off with a dessert topped with ice cream, caramel, and chocolate. And that was a normal meal for me, and I would eat every bite.
So the answer is no I will never cheat, I will always order food that is on the healtier side, I do not ever see myself ordering anything fried, cheesey, creamy, or breaded ever again. And to be honest I am okay with that, I have learned to enjoy new falvors, and new tastes.
I had to tell her no never again will I ever eat like I used to! We were discussing eating out, and how with my new healthy life style it is no longer fun. There are 2 main reasons, eating out with a 2 almost 3 year old is a fight, keeping her entertained and happy is nearly impossible. The second reason is the biggest, I always know what I will eat before I walk in the restaurant door. What I get is usually one of the 3 healthy items, all which I could make better.
So talking about this my friend totally understood the first reason, but the second confused her, she wanted to know why I could not just sometimes cheat. I told her sure there will be times I go out and enjoy myself but I will never eat bacon cheese fries, or awesome blossom for appetizers, then some cheesy creamy sauce over pasta, and finish it off with a dessert topped with ice cream, caramel, and chocolate. And that was a normal meal for me, and I would eat every bite.
So the answer is no I will never cheat, I will always order food that is on the healtier side, I do not ever see myself ordering anything fried, cheesey, creamy, or breaded ever again. And to be honest I am okay with that, I have learned to enjoy new falvors, and new tastes.
My best friend is home!!
My best friend lives in France, and she is home for 6 weeks. I am so thrilled she is one of those rare people you meet and instantly and forever are best friends with. I have three of those in my life, my sister, husband and Julia. I met Julia when I was applying to work at the Cheesecake Factory, and we hit it off, and have been the closest of friends since. Even when she moved to Spain, and then France we still talk all the time. So you get is she is the best I could talk about how wonderful she is, just like I could tell you about my amazing husband and the best sister I have, but I will not bore you with the details...you get she is awesome.
So she is home, and her dad signed her up to join the gym I work out at, I am so excited because meeting up with someone is the motivation I need still. But her dad is buying it for her in hopes she will learn to like exercise. I hate to inform her I do it now it is habit but I still hate the actual act of working out. What I am addicted to is the feeling I get after I work out. That feeling of accomplishment that I pushed my body to do something I couldn't do 19 weeks ago.
I had that feeling when I completed the turkey trot, I felt a high. I learned from my sister this is normal, its called a runners high. It is the reason I signed up for the half marathon. I figure if I felt that great after 5 miles, I can only imagine the feeling I will get when I finish 13 miles.
SO that keeps me working out, I hope that she feels something. I had worked out before, and never stuck with it because to just work out for the sake of working out is not fun for me. As long as I keep finding goals to try for I will keep going to the gym. Everyone has a different motivation, and I can encourage her and meet up and for this six weeks she probably will do it because it is fun to have me around (because I am awesome like that). When she goes back home to Cannes France(lucky girl!), she will have to find her own motivation to keep going.
But that is beside the point, my best friend is home for 6 weeks I am going to horde every possible moment with her till she goes back.
What keeps you working out?
So she is home, and her dad signed her up to join the gym I work out at, I am so excited because meeting up with someone is the motivation I need still. But her dad is buying it for her in hopes she will learn to like exercise. I hate to inform her I do it now it is habit but I still hate the actual act of working out. What I am addicted to is the feeling I get after I work out. That feeling of accomplishment that I pushed my body to do something I couldn't do 19 weeks ago.
I had that feeling when I completed the turkey trot, I felt a high. I learned from my sister this is normal, its called a runners high. It is the reason I signed up for the half marathon. I figure if I felt that great after 5 miles, I can only imagine the feeling I will get when I finish 13 miles.
SO that keeps me working out, I hope that she feels something. I had worked out before, and never stuck with it because to just work out for the sake of working out is not fun for me. As long as I keep finding goals to try for I will keep going to the gym. Everyone has a different motivation, and I can encourage her and meet up and for this six weeks she probably will do it because it is fun to have me around (because I am awesome like that). When she goes back home to Cannes France(lucky girl!), she will have to find her own motivation to keep going.
But that is beside the point, my best friend is home for 6 weeks I am going to horde every possible moment with her till she goes back.
What keeps you working out?
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Stuffed Peppers and salsa chicken!
Oh I have had 2 amazing dinners the past couple of days, one my husband swears is the best thing ever, and other I made and ate for the first time and can not wait to make again!
The First is salsa chicken with my additions...
So easy,
chicken breasts 3-4 depending on size roughly 1 pound
1 cup of salsa
Taco seasoning
cream of mushroom soup 98% fat free
Light sour cream
(next ones are my additions)1/2 cup brown rice
1 can black beans
few Jalapenos
Throw the chicken seasoning, salsa, soup, and jalapenos in the crock pot for 4-6 hours.
When 3-5 hours into the cooking add the rice and black beans and cook for one more hour. When done in the crock pot add the sour cream mix well and the shred the chicken. Then put over tortilla I like corn because they are healthier, my husband prefers flour.
It is so easy and my husbands favorite thing, he ate them for the next 3 days as well.
Next I had my first experience with stuffed green peppers, I do not know how I went my entire life without ever trying them, I love green peppers.
I kinda winged it and it turned out great.
1/2 95% lean ground beef
Uncle Ben's original rice prepared (I only added half the rice)
8 oz tomato sauce
Italian seasoning, add as much or as little as you like, I added roughly 1 tablespoon.
small onion
4 oz (it was what I had in the fridge) mushrooms cut up small.
Salt and pepper to taste
1/8 cup parm cheese
3 medium green peppers
I prepared the uncle Ben's rice, then brown the onions added the beef and mushrooms and cooked till brown, added the mushrooms tomato sauce, seasoning, salt pepper, rice, then the parm cheese. I cooked till the parm was all integrated in. then turned on low, cut the tops out of the peppers and stuffed them full of the mixture. Sprinkle with a Small amount of parm and Italian seasoning on each one, cook in the oven for 45 minutes at 375.
Both I highly recommend, neither tasted like "diet food."
Today I have been doing well. Yesterday I did awesome, had 10 points to eat at night, and I ate my normal ice cream bar (2 points) half the target Popcorn(5 points), then discovered a new love of animal crackers and ate half the bag(8 points).
Seriously what is wrong with me I can not go one entire day, I did so well, even gave myself a ton of night snacking points...and I still went over my daily points.
Well today is a new day...I will do it right! I even worked out, which is easiers said than done knowing I am working tonight.
The First is salsa chicken with my additions...
So easy,
chicken breasts 3-4 depending on size roughly 1 pound
1 cup of salsa
Taco seasoning
cream of mushroom soup 98% fat free
Light sour cream
(next ones are my additions)1/2 cup brown rice
1 can black beans
few Jalapenos
Throw the chicken seasoning, salsa, soup, and jalapenos in the crock pot for 4-6 hours.
When 3-5 hours into the cooking add the rice and black beans and cook for one more hour. When done in the crock pot add the sour cream mix well and the shred the chicken. Then put over tortilla I like corn because they are healthier, my husband prefers flour.
It is so easy and my husbands favorite thing, he ate them for the next 3 days as well.
Next I had my first experience with stuffed green peppers, I do not know how I went my entire life without ever trying them, I love green peppers.
I kinda winged it and it turned out great.
1/2 95% lean ground beef
Uncle Ben's original rice prepared (I only added half the rice)
8 oz tomato sauce
Italian seasoning, add as much or as little as you like, I added roughly 1 tablespoon.
small onion
4 oz (it was what I had in the fridge) mushrooms cut up small.
Salt and pepper to taste
1/8 cup parm cheese
3 medium green peppers
I prepared the uncle Ben's rice, then brown the onions added the beef and mushrooms and cooked till brown, added the mushrooms tomato sauce, seasoning, salt pepper, rice, then the parm cheese. I cooked till the parm was all integrated in. then turned on low, cut the tops out of the peppers and stuffed them full of the mixture. Sprinkle with a Small amount of parm and Italian seasoning on each one, cook in the oven for 45 minutes at 375.
Both I highly recommend, neither tasted like "diet food."
Today I have been doing well. Yesterday I did awesome, had 10 points to eat at night, and I ate my normal ice cream bar (2 points) half the target Popcorn(5 points), then discovered a new love of animal crackers and ate half the bag(8 points).
Seriously what is wrong with me I can not go one entire day, I did so well, even gave myself a ton of night snacking points...and I still went over my daily points.
Well today is a new day...I will do it right! I even worked out, which is easiers said than done knowing I am working tonight.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
What to eat?
I was reading a blog about what to eat when you do not have enough time. She ended up eating a smart ones and not enjoying it. I did that often when I first started my journey. Now it I do not do it so much. I have learned to pre plan and one days dinner of chili made double in size gives me a much better frozen food option for the future.
I just started once a week making soup in the crock pot....a HUGE amount of soup. We eat that for dinner then freezing the rest in pre portioned containers. Now 4 weeks into it I have a freezer full of chili, black bean soup, chicken noodle, and beef and vegetable. When I need to just grab something quick for dinner or lunch I make a salad and eat on of my soups.
I also started making extra chicken breasts. When I cook I make 4 chicken breast, Riley eats only 1/2 or less of hers so I have 1 and half chicken breast, that I use to throw on a salad. I have become creative with my salads, I can make apple walnut ones, Mexican ones, one full of veggies (usually eaten before weigh in day), I have my own version of an Asian one, all takes me less than 5 minutes to put together.
I find these things and easy fix for hunger and much better tasting than the Smart ones or lean cuisines, even though I always have a couple in my freezer I get the pizza ones, not the greatest, but better than eating pizza out if that is what I am craving.
I do not pretend to know all the answers I am still early on this life long change, but I have slowly been turning away from processed foods, someday I hope to be a food snob and turn my nose up at any and all of them, but I am not there yet. I still have my fiber bars, and WW ice cream treats.
Oh and it is Wed. day after weight in day the day I usually over eat, today I have stayed on track, I ran and did the elliptical, signed up for tomorrows, Monday and Tuesdays workouts. I really am going to focus this week to stay 100% on track, like I did the first 10 weeks of my journey. The last 8 weeks I refuse to say I have been bad but I have been about 75% on track, that is why I have been having okay losses. So goals this week....
1. Go to the gym 4 days I have 3 days set up with childcare, the forth will have to be Saturday or Sunday.
2. Do not over eat, stay away from the M&M's, and stay within my daily points, no flex points are allowed this week.
3. Stay positive not look at the pictures of me in my sports bra and get depressed by how fat I still am, but instead focus on how far I have come. In a sense do what Katie J is doing...fake it!
I just started once a week making soup in the crock pot....a HUGE amount of soup. We eat that for dinner then freezing the rest in pre portioned containers. Now 4 weeks into it I have a freezer full of chili, black bean soup, chicken noodle, and beef and vegetable. When I need to just grab something quick for dinner or lunch I make a salad and eat on of my soups.
I also started making extra chicken breasts. When I cook I make 4 chicken breast, Riley eats only 1/2 or less of hers so I have 1 and half chicken breast, that I use to throw on a salad. I have become creative with my salads, I can make apple walnut ones, Mexican ones, one full of veggies (usually eaten before weigh in day), I have my own version of an Asian one, all takes me less than 5 minutes to put together.
I find these things and easy fix for hunger and much better tasting than the Smart ones or lean cuisines, even though I always have a couple in my freezer I get the pizza ones, not the greatest, but better than eating pizza out if that is what I am craving.
I do not pretend to know all the answers I am still early on this life long change, but I have slowly been turning away from processed foods, someday I hope to be a food snob and turn my nose up at any and all of them, but I am not there yet. I still have my fiber bars, and WW ice cream treats.
Oh and it is Wed. day after weight in day the day I usually over eat, today I have stayed on track, I ran and did the elliptical, signed up for tomorrows, Monday and Tuesdays workouts. I really am going to focus this week to stay 100% on track, like I did the first 10 weeks of my journey. The last 8 weeks I refuse to say I have been bad but I have been about 75% on track, that is why I have been having okay losses. So goals this week....
1. Go to the gym 4 days I have 3 days set up with childcare, the forth will have to be Saturday or Sunday.
2. Do not over eat, stay away from the M&M's, and stay within my daily points, no flex points are allowed this week.
3. Stay positive not look at the pictures of me in my sports bra and get depressed by how fat I still am, but instead focus on how far I have come. In a sense do what Katie J is doing...fake it!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Weigh in and new Pictures!
Okay so I have been avoiding taking these pictures. I said I would start to take them in a sports bra, this is the first time since I was 15 I am showing my stomach. This would honestly be easier if everyone that read this blog were strangers, but I opened up and told everyone about my blog. So here they are pictures of me in a sports bra. I am doing this so I can really see the progress.
So weigh in went well it seems I am evening out on weight loss I lost 1.6 this week so I am now 198. I really really want to focus this week I want a nice loss, because the next week is Christmas, and my 31st birthday(yes my birthday is on Christmas!), I want to enjoy the Turducken my dad is making.
Editing to add, if you need any sort of motivation, visit Laura's blog and see her before and right now pictures.
So weigh in went well it seems I am evening out on weight loss I lost 1.6 this week so I am now 198. I really really want to focus this week I want a nice loss, because the next week is Christmas, and my 31st birthday(yes my birthday is on Christmas!), I want to enjoy the Turducken my dad is making.
Editing to add, if you need any sort of motivation, visit Laura's blog and see her before and right now pictures.
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