Some days I am thrilled with myself.
But then there are the days I look in the mirror and still see a huge stomach.
Some days I feel my collar bones, and new found hip bones, and want to jump for joy.
But then there are the days I realize I can still grab handfuls of fat on my back.
Some days I rub my back and notice that I no longer have a fat roll resting on another one.
But then there are days I realize I only got rid of the small roll, the big one is still there.
Some days I look at certain pictures and notice with glee I am missing a chin or 3!
But then there are days I still notice that there are still 2 chins.
Some days I try on clothes and pout because non of my old clothes fit, they are all to big!
But then there are days that I try on clothes my friend brought over, or that have been in boxes for 10 years, and they don't fit either...too small.
It almost seems like it is harder to be half way into this journey, I get all the joys of the shock and excitement, but I am still far away from the thin, marathon running, health freak I have pictured in my head. Right now I am still just Katie trying my damnedest to not eat the potty M & M's(Riley's reward for using the potty is M& M's).
To me it is a struggle every day. If I look back at the big picture sure I will say its not hard, if I can do it ANYONE can. But the day to day struggle, does get to me, the getting up and going to the gym, the picking the right foods, when all I want is the wrong one. The sitting down and writing all the food in, so I stay accountable. These are the things I have to do everyday.
In the end I will look back at this time, and be glad I did it, be glad I followed through, but I really want this first year to be done!
Darn I hate all the buts in this post.