Sunday, January 3, 2010

I am cold, and I have a jacket now.

Last year every single time I went to my mother in laws house she would yell at me for not wearing a jacket. I would always tell her the same thing, "I never get cold", funny thing is I almost beleived that lie. I had a jacket a very nice Columbia Ski jacket, that I bought 3 years ago, that I could not zip up, or heck even move my arms comfortly in. So I would wear it only when absolutly needed, most times I would just have it in the car.

This year I always have it on, and I could probably fit in the large now too. I would love to say that because I am losing the weight I am now colder, but the truth is I was so embaressed by my not fitting in that really nice jacket, that I would just tell people I was never cold.

My next goal is to wear this jacket I bought at the gap years ago(10 years to be exact). I think I only wore it a handful of times before I grew out of that one. It is a nice spring one that I will be wearing all spring. I can not wait till I do not have to lie and pretend I am not cold in 55 degree weather too.

IT is funny to me the more I lose the more I realized how much I lied to myself to justify the weight. If you had asked me 6 months ago how my extra weight affected my life I would have told you not at all or if any very little. Now as I am shedding my fat suit I now know how much it did, and how great this feels.


Melanie said...

Great post. It is unbelievable the amount of lying we do to ourselves and others with regard to our weight. I'm glad you're wearing a coat again :o) and I'm looking forward to seeing that spring jacket on you.
Keep up the great work; you're looking good girl!

Learning to be Less said...

Girl, I know what you mean. Don't you just want to wear that jacket all the time? Nver take it off? That is how I feel about my new jeans.

I am sad I have to go back to work clothes tomorrow.

I am so proud of you!! You are rockin' it. Are you still training for a run?

Tricia said...

Its amazing how much we lie to ourselves to justify our weight.

Great job getting accountable!