Sunday, January 3, 2010

I am cold, and I have a jacket now.

Last year every single time I went to my mother in laws house she would yell at me for not wearing a jacket. I would always tell her the same thing, "I never get cold", funny thing is I almost beleived that lie. I had a jacket a very nice Columbia Ski jacket, that I bought 3 years ago, that I could not zip up, or heck even move my arms comfortly in. So I would wear it only when absolutly needed, most times I would just have it in the car.

This year I always have it on, and I could probably fit in the large now too. I would love to say that because I am losing the weight I am now colder, but the truth is I was so embaressed by my not fitting in that really nice jacket, that I would just tell people I was never cold.

My next goal is to wear this jacket I bought at the gap years ago(10 years to be exact). I think I only wore it a handful of times before I grew out of that one. It is a nice spring one that I will be wearing all spring. I can not wait till I do not have to lie and pretend I am not cold in 55 degree weather too.

IT is funny to me the more I lose the more I realized how much I lied to myself to justify the weight. If you had asked me 6 months ago how my extra weight affected my life I would have told you not at all or if any very little. Now as I am shedding my fat suit I now know how much it did, and how great this feels.

3 comments:

Melanie said...

Great post. It is unbelievable the amount of lying we do to ourselves and others with regard to our weight. I'm glad you're wearing a coat again :o) and I'm looking forward to seeing that spring jacket on you.
Keep up the great work; you're looking good girl!

Learning to be Less said...

Girl, I know what you mean. Don't you just want to wear that jacket all the time? Nver take it off? That is how I feel about my new jeans.

I am sad I have to go back to work clothes tomorrow.

I am so proud of you!! You are rockin' it. Are you still training for a run?

Tricia said...

Its amazing how much we lie to ourselves to justify our weight.

Great job getting accountable!