Apple crisp!!!

One of my favorite bloggers and fellow Spartan asked for it....so here is the amazing apple crisp. It is from the Weight Watcher Magazine, and I did use splenda sugar and brown sugar.

1/2c. + 2 tbsp. all purpose flour
1/2 c. quick cooking or old fashioned oats (not instant)
1/4 c. brown sugar
1/2 tsp. ground ginger (I didn't use this)
1/4 tsp. cinnamon (I used 1/2 tsp one 1/4 in the mixture, and 1/4 in the topping)
3 Tbsp of light stick butter diced (and I let soften a bit)
1 tsp. water
1/4 c. granulated sugar
1/4 tsp nutmeg
3 lb apples ( I used Granny smith, the recipe says Golden Delicious or Jonathan. Peel and thinly slice the apples
1 tsp. vanilla extract

1. preheat the oven to 375 F. Spray a shallow 1 1/2-qt baking dish with nonstick spray.

2. To make the topping, combine the 1/2c. flour, the oats, brown sugar, ginger, cinnamon and a pinch of salt in a medium bowl. With a pastry blender or 2 knives used scissor-fashion cut in the butter until the mixture resembles coarse crumbs. Add 1 tsp. water and firmly press the misture to form clumps.

3 To make the filling, mix the granulated sugar and the 2 Tbsp. flour, nutmeg, in a large bowl. Add the apples and vanilla: mix well. Tranfer to the baking dish. Sprinkle the topping over the filling. Bake until the filling is bubbling and the topping is golden, 55-60 minutes. Serve warm or at room temperature.

I added light whip topping to mine instead of icecream. I also doubled the topping to give it more crisp!

But as is, it serves 8. 189 cal, 3 G fat, 1 G Sat fat, 0 G trans Fat, 5 MG CHOL, 64 MG Sod, 41 G Carb, 3 G fiber, 2 G Protien, 18 MG calcium. Points Value: 3.

We used the entire pan to serve 7, with very large portions.

My Thanksgiving...

I was so good. I ate the green bean casserole I made, coliflower with no butter, turkey, and for dessert I ate the apple crisp I made. Apple crisp was beyond amazing, It had slightly more points because I double the crisp part.

So thanksgiving came and went. My parents came in and if you ever read this blog you know my dad is also a WW follower. So Friday I was one of the crazy people and went out at 5 am. My mom and I forgot to eat, and for dinner I made one of my favorite recipes, flank steak taco's I didn't add up my points but my dad's points were low so I know I was well below my points for friday.

Then Saturday came, that was my gluttny day!! We went to the local market and bought a 6 pound prime rib, for 4.99 a pound. Not exactly the most weight watcher friendly of meals. My dad made the most amazing garlic mashed potatoes, and oh I made the apple crisp again. No one but me really ate any of the first one, so it all worked out, I told you it was amazing). So I counted the poitns and I did go over, but still not crazy over, until I added the 4 glasses of wine I drank. Wine isn't bad but my 4 glasses were more like 6 servings, so 12 points there. Today I am going to the gym to work some of that dinner off!

So not a bad weekend, food wise the only excersise I got this week was cleaning and the 5 mile turkey trot on thanks giving. I didn't reach my goal I did it in 1 hour and 7 minutes. My husband did not train at all went out and ran it in 49 minutes. I am proud of him and I hate him for that! But it was fun, after our turkey trot there is a huge party with fruit, yogurt, water, and free beer, we couldn't stay for that because we needed to get home to the rugrats. Next year it will be something we plan for.

Sorry for the long time without a post it was a crazy weekend.

I opened THE box

Well if I needed motivation to get me through thanksgiving. Or if I needed a slap in the face to remind me how far I still have to go, I found it. I opened THE box. The one full of clothes I wore at 21. I am not sure what I was thinking but I tried some of it on. WOW I still have a good 25-30 pounds before I think I even want to look in that box again. It was a rude awakening, that yes I have come far, but I am not even close to my goal. And even when those clothes fit it will still be a ways off.

I am excited and happy with myself for 50 pounds, pretty much every clothing I have from the past 8 years now all fits. Any farther back is in this box, and this box makes me angry and disgusted with myself. I realize how out of control, how bad, and how delusional I was. I just want to scream. For the past 4 years I have lived the life I have always wanted, I have an amazing husband, he is gorgeous, funny, smart just about everything I could ask for. I have the 2 greatest adorable children. I am happy, and yet I ate I let myself go, to the point my husband didn't find me attractive, I couldn't play and be involved in my kids life. The clothes I just went through reminded me of all that. The box of clothes that do not fit yet and won't for a month or 3, remind me how many chances I had to lose the weight and turned my back and convinced myself I wasn't that bad.

That box of clothes is all 8 to 10 years old, stuff I will more than likely never wear again in my life even when I get that small. But it just reminds me how at one point I was a simple 25 pounds away from my goal. I was so close and I didn't take it. So I am going to keep that box, and not only will it all fit me again, but I will be forced to eventually give it away because it is all too big. It still hurts to know how bad I let myself get out of control.

I will be forever grateful to my dad, who gave me my life....twice! Because of him I actually looked in the mirror and saw myself for what I had become. And because of him(and my mom) I was able to go to that first weight watchers meeting. And because of him I knew that I could do it, because if he did it so can I. And because of him(mom again too) I have a continuous support system.

But dad why couldn't you lose all your weight when i was 200? not 252...then I would have had such an easier time....jeesh=P

Good week not Great

Down 2.2 pounds. I hit 50 pounds lost, but still 2 pounds from being under 200. I will get that next week!

But YAY for 1/2 way to my goal.

Oh and I can put off taking a picture in the sports bra for 1 more week.

Thanksgiving anxiety.

So this week I am going to be facing my first holiday of eating right, the anxiety I am feeling is insane. I have a mother in law with the best of intentions, she is also a great cook, but everything is loaded with fat and butter, she actually said she thinks Paula Dean uses too LITTLE butter.

That is where I am going for Thanksgiving, Mashed Potatoes loaded with whole cream and butter, stuffing with even more butter, Green bean casserole made with bacon fat to "add more flavor", gravy that is pure fat, and 6 different pies, The only thing she makes on thanksgiving that is weight watcher friendly is the turkey. I have a plan I bringing a green bean casserole of my own from a weight watcher cookbook, I am also bringing an apple crisp from the WW magazine. But that still doesn't help the anxiety. It is the fist time I will be facing down loads and loads of food, food I would eat 2-3 servings of in previous years. Then follow up with 1/4 of a pie. This year I have a plan, I am just worried, what if the fat ass Katie takes over?

I really wish my parents were coming in and I could make the dinner myself, I could make everything WW friendly, but that will be next year. This year I just have to stick to the plan. I wish I just could get rid of this pit in my stomach, I wish I could just skip over telling my Mother in law, "no, no thank you" 500 times.

Weigh in day is today so I will let you all know later if it is a good, or a great week.

Broken chair

I was reading Diane's blog about her broken chair and got me thinking about what happened to me.

This summer I would "play" outside with Riley pretty much that involved me sitting in a chair watching Riley play. I would use the excuse that I had Sophie, a newborn sleeps most of the time, I could have put her in her car seat, bouncy seat or on a blanket, but I didn't I would hold her and have Riley play around me. One day after pushing Riley in the swing I got my chair opened it up, sat, and the chair ripped in half with my arse falling to the ground. It had to be funny, if anyone had seen. My large arse fallen in my arms and legs out and me stuck(the baby was sleeping inside).

I chalked it up that the chair was worn out from being outside, that is what weakened the material. I too put the blame on so much else, when my husband saw it I made a joke of it, he knew, and I knew. Every time I sat in a chair after that I worried it would break. That incident did not start my journey though.

Now I look back and see that 250+ woman and know my weight is what broke that chair. Funny thing is now instead of sitting in chairs outside I actually play with Riley. I chase her around and the only time I sit is because Sophie needs to nurse.

I am glad some of those things happened, they remind me that I am doing this for so many reasons.

funny thing I have been noticing.

So I have noticed, all my long sleeve shirts the sleeves are in insanely long on me. I put them on and feel like a child again folding the sleeves up.

That is all.

Work out work out eat righ eat right.

So that is my week. I have been great I went over my daily points by 1.5(I counted the Mojito even though I didn't drink it all) the day of the movie but I have not gone over since. I have worked out every day I haven't had to work. I ran a 5k today in 34 minutes. So I figure if I can do that on thanksgiving and even then just walk fast the last 2 miles I can definitely do this in under 1 hour.

I was so excited to go to weight watchers and step on the scale, till I read Jack's blog, and he was super good this week and only lost .3 pounds. I hope that this will not happen to me. I really want to hit 50 pounds lost, and even more I would like to see onderland.

No popcorn!

I did have a Mojito before though, but that is 3 points, and it wasn't that good I should have just ordered a glass of wine. You know what I did with the mojito didn't drink it. I didn't love it so I didn't drink it just because it was there. That is a new thing, not finishing my food and drinks. I think we are all programed to eat what we order, but now I realize no I shouldn't eat everything.

Before I started my journey I would wait on tables with skinny girls ordering really fatty meals, like chicken carbonara, that is 1700 calories and 120 grams of fat, they would eat some and not want it boxed. I never got that it was a waste of money they should eat it or at least take it home. I don't think that anymore, now If I splurge I will eat till I am full, and then the splurge is done, there will be no taking it home for later. I did that with the mojito I ordered something that is a splurge, didn't LOVE it so I didn't drink it.

I am feeling in control. I am getting a little nervous though, and a little excited, today at the gym I stepped on the scale in just my bra and underwear, and moved the levy to 200 and BAM that is what I weigh. I wonder if weight watchers will let me weigh myself in my bra and underwear. So I am a little nervous because if that is what I weigh, then I have to take pictures in my sports bra...I don't feel ready for that. But I still have till Tuesday!

Too popcorn or not....

So today like many desprate housewives I am going to see the New Moon premier with friends. I am a dork who loves the books, even though I do love Jacob so much more than Edward.

But before like most girls night out we are grabbing dinner, we haven't decided where so I know what I will order at, Chili's, Friday's, Olive Garden, those are the 3 places closest to the theater so I figure we will be hitting up one of them. But I am not sure that if you read far enough back and know my love of movie popcorn. I seriously could eat movie popcorn and only movie popcorn for the rest of my life, with butter of course. I will have to touch into my flex points to have that small movie popcorn, and to stay full for the day. I am working out today but that is to work off the cookie yesterday. If I didn't eat that cookie yesterday I would definatly get popcorn. But I really really really want to lose 2.2 pounds this week and I want to take zero chance that I won't. So that means staying on plan. And unfortunatly eating popcorn does not include that plan. So I guess I talked myself out of it. I want to be skinny more than I want Movie Popcorn. WOW that is a first.

So there it is this blogging worked today, I was able through this post decide that I will not eat Movie popcorn, tomorrow I will let you know if the smell wins and I stick with that plan=)

Old habits die slow=(

So for most of the 15 weeks I have been working at this I have went out after story time, we would go to Panera I love love the Fuji Apple chicken salad, it is a bit high in points, 10 points to be exact. But I know every Wednesday I will be eating that so I plan accordingly. Also every Wednesday Riley, and Addie split a meal, and a cookie, Addie never eats her half and Riley today didn't eat her half either today. Today before I knew it, I ate the cookie. So I really am not beating myself up for eating the cookie, because I do allow myself treats now and then. I am beating myself up because I didn't even want the cookie, it was a shortbread cookie, not my favorite, I also literally finished it before I even realized it.

I am not sure if this has happened to anyone else the surprise eating, eating something you never intended? Well when I came back home I tracked that cookie....350 calories 21 grams of fat! I could have eaten 3 100 calorie Chips Ahoy cookie packs, 2 skinny cow ice creams, 3 apples with a little peanut butter, instead of that 1 cookie that I didn't even want/enjoy.

This is a habit that I used to have one that I thought I controlled, mindless eating. The cookie will not ruin my day, but it does make me realize just as I feel things are under control....well it is still a day to day struggle.

Well I refuse to beat myself up about that, I just know that I have to do what I used to, if Riley doesn't eat something that looks good, I have to get it out of my sight, throw it away as soon as possible or if I want to take it with me for Ryan, I leave it in the car till he comes home.

The cookie will not win! I will work out 9 points tomorrow! I have a gym time set up, I will do 5 points there, then do 4 miles when Ryan gets home another 5 points there. Maybe that will teach me to not eat something I don't even want=)

Oh I did Pilate's today and wow that is hard, just when I start to feel better about myself I find out my stomach has no muscle, I could only do about 1/3 of the stomach exercise correct, the other times I had to "cheat."

Had a decent loss but....

Good news is I lost 2.6 pounds this week. Bad news is I have to lose 4.2 pounds this week to be under 200 when my parents get here. Good news though if i lose 2.2 pounds I will reach 50 pounds lost, half way to my goal weight.

So I think the good out ways the bad. Going to work hard this week everyday I am not working I will walk/run at least 4 miles. I will not use my flex or activity points. I will reach the 50 pounds loss, the being under 200 I will give it my all.

I also set my official goal weight at weight watchers, 152...100 pounds less than my first weigh in.

New motivation

So this will be a double post day. Today is weigh in and righ now I am avoiding the very large laundry pile that needs to be folded.

So the other day on face book a few of friends all decided we needed to lose weight. So we start a group that for the next 2 months who ever loses the largest percentage gets a small incentive from the other 3 ladies. As I expected I have the most to lose, by a ton. In fact one girl in our challenge weighs my goal weight!

The other part to this is all the women in this challenge I went to High School with. Now in High School I was the dork, I had serious issues, I wanted to be every ones friend to the point I ended up annoying people so no one wanted to be my friend. I was basically severely insecure and would try so hard that people didn't want to be around me. This isn't a pity party for that Katie because she wasn't an innocent, I would also inspire drama, and well I lied all the time about stupid idiotic stuff. So you get it, I was a huge dork, that doesn't have many fond high school memories. I will say it is strange I ended up married to the captain of the football team.

My whole point by telling you this is it is very strange for me to be in contact or even doing something like this with people from High School, now the ladies doing it with me were never my problem in fact they actually put up with me more than they should have. One woman even mentioned that I didn't have my maiden name out so she didn't even realize who I was. I did that on purpose, there is a period of my life I am embarrassed by, I am not that same Katie.

So to wrap it up I think I feel good that this little challenge I think it will help keep my momentum going, especially through the holidays. It also helps that former insecure High school self feel just a little involved, even if I am the fattest one.

Turkey trot in 2 weeks

Okay I am getting nervous about the turkey trot. I have been working on a running program that a fellow blogger sent me, But I still don't feel secure in it. When I signed up for it I wanted to finish it in less than 1 hour. I am not so sure that is a possiblity. I also wanted to run the entire thing. I can run 3 miles, but at the end feel totall drained, I am not so sure I can run all 5 miles.

So I mapped a 5 mile run around my house, I am going to do that 3 days a week, I also know when mile 1,2,3,4 and 5 is. So my goal is run 3 miles, walk fast 1 mile, and run the last 1 mile. I am shooting for 13-14 minute miles, so to do it all in 1 hour and 7 minutes. Completely doable, I probably will be able to do it in less, when I do my 3 miles I can do it in 37 minutes just over 12 minute miles, so that gives me 30 minutes to finish the last 2 miles.

I should have worked harder....grr, but no use looking back. I will just focus on the next 2 weeks!

I think I am being hit on!

Or at least being flirted with. Now I know I am married and shouldn't find this all exciting but it is. Today I was watching the game on the t.v.'s at work talking to one of the cooks about my fantasy football team. When he asked me to go have a drink with him, and watch the rest of the game. I said, "well I would but i have 2 kids and a husband waiting at home for me." He was embarrassed and apologized. I told him don't be silly it made my night it was the first time in 4 years a male, besides my husband, hit on me! I also have to mention he also asked me when I started, I have worked at the Cheesecake Factory for 2 and half years.

See not only am I becoming attractive again, I can't wear my wedding ring. It falls off so easy. I want to buy a chain for it so I have with me all the time. But like pants I don't want to have to pay to have it sized down only to have to do it again down the line.

I have lately noticed funny places I am losing weight, my fingers and feet are just a couple that have been getting skinny too!

New pants.

Today I wore pants that I bought 3 years ago! Pants that never fit. And when I mean never fit I mean there was 6 inches from button to button. They are the type of pants that also have no "give" they don't stretch at all, like jeans and some khakis do. So today I wore them and right now just noticed they didn't even leave the fat marks. They are also just tight enough to remind me to not pick at french fries.

My friend also sold me her size 12 old navy jeans. Funny thing is I just washed then and they fit perfect, 1 day of wear they can slide up and down without buttoning them! I could be wearing some size 10 by Christmas. I wasn't say I will be a size ten but I can see a few old navy 10 jeans in my near future.

As I have mentioned before I have a strange body shape, so I am still a size 16 in dresses. I have an 18w dress in my basement that is huge on me, but not too huge so I am assuming a 16w would fit me perfect.

I am so excited for thanksgiving my mom is bringing some of her old clothes. I have no desire to pay full price for any clothes, so cast offs are good enough for me. I have no pride! I used to just buy clothes because they fit and no other reason. I would go to Old Navy, or some such store find a shirt that was long so no one could see my stomach if I reached, Wasn't so tight you could see fat rolls, not too loose I that I would look like I was wearing a tent(I now see they all looked like tents), and when I would find all that I would buy 3-5 of those shirts. Winter was my favorite season because big bulky sweaters, and sweatshirts could come out. During the summer I had Capri's, I haven't worn a pair of shorts in 4 years. I have to say part of me is a little worried about style and losing weight. As you can see buying for style is a completely foreign idea.

I have never, even during my skinnier days, been able to walk into a store and know that most everything will fit me. I am excited and nervous for that, excited because shopping for myself will be fun again, and nervous because I don't know what I will even buy. I am hoping this summer when the weight is all gone, my sister will be in town and can help me with this dilemma.

But as for now this is all a future thought. For now cast offs are perfect and I can't wait for new ones=)

stupid katie

Yesterday Ryan wanted Pizza again, so he we had Pizza, I did have 2 large slices, and one small one. I also ate 3 ice cream bars. The good thing about eating the 3 ice cream bars is I have nothing left to binge on all sugar is out out out. So Jen if your reading this I am with you on your no sugar 2 weeks. My only problem is I have a diet coke addiction, it has gotten better, but I still have two 2liters a week. I am not sure if I can give that up so easy.

So today my goal is to go work out when Ryan gets home. I have been really tired lately, I am not sure if it is because I haven't been working out as much as I used to. Or because earlier this week I spent 2 nights up reading the last Twilight book, or the fact I have a 4 almost 5 month old that sleeps in our room and won't let me sleep a solid eight hours. Lately she has been doing better she will soon be in the shared bedroom with Riley.

I don't talk about my kids much on here because it is a weight loss blog but I have to say looking at my gorgeous baby "talking" to her stuffed frog, there really is nothing like being a mom is there? The big toothless smiles she gives me every time I look at her makes the sleepless night worth it. She is getting big so fast, I can't believe she is my last baby, I wish time would slow down. My two year old is in the other room, and today she gave me a time out for not listening to her. And then when it was over she said "look into my eyes, listen to Riley, I WANT M's(m&m's)" I had to go back to time out because I wouldn't give her any.

Thanks for letting me indulge in a couple of my kids stories it is just that I think I have the best 2 little ones alive!

Goals for today.

1. No Sugar.
2. Go for a run, or to the gym.
3. Play outside with the girls.


Just a quick not to say I am so sad apple season is over, I am eating an apple sadly no where near the flavor and juiciness of apples from a few weeks ago=( Good news citrus fruit season is here! I ate an entire pineapple in 2 days it was so good.

What my weight watcher leader said to me...

So I was talking to Traci my weight watcher leader. She was congratulating me on my weight loss, and just making me feel great! I then told her about how I am not worried about losing the weight, I know I can do it, I am more worried about keeping it off.

She told me something I was thinking about, she said I should become a weight watcher leader. You can't get fat if you are motivating and telling others they should follow you. So that is my goal, the pay from what I found sucks, but it wouldn't be about that for me. I know this is still 55 pounds away, but it gives me something to think about till then=)

Oh and if you didn't read my comments from my previous post, I just want all you ladies to know one thing I left out about my brother, he is single!! So if you can live in the middle of no where, ride a bike, ski, and love the snow and cold I have the man for you! Just know a vast majority of my brothers income goes to bikes, bike races, bike trips, and then the 8 month winter hits and the rest goes toward ski's, ski races, and ski trips.

There James! Did I leave anything out??

My big brother

So thanks to James my big brother I now can leave comments, and see who my new followers are (HI!!). So I am very excited about all that.

Now listening to James is not all bad, this may make up for the time he told me I could just steer a sled through the trees...btw I could not and now have a scar were I received 12 stitches because a tree hit me.

My big brother is pretty amazing too. I told you all about my dad I want to give you a quick bit about my brother. He is hilarious, sarcastic and the change he made in is his life is crazy. He does this biking called cycle cross, it is pretty crazy you can read about it at his blog here (do NOT click on the link about Tibetan burial...trust me DON'T!)

But this is not the James that always was, he was overweight for most of his late teen years all the way through his 20's. But not only did he just lose weight he became this crazy insane biker. This year he rode his bike to my parents cottage...350 miles there, and 350 miles back...he rode his bike 700 miles in one week. I think he earned a few weight watcher points with that.

He also told me the story of how he really wanted a cinnamon roll, so what did he do....rode his bike 90 miles there to get one, okay he said he ate 4 but you ride 180 miles you deserve 4.

Soon ski season will be here and he will probably ski to my parents for Christmas or something crazy like that. The past couple of years I see my brother as a different person, he is now the fit person in our family(sorry Colleen). I know I will never be James, but I would like to do a triathlon with my big brother next year(or at sometime in the future). I will never not beat him, but if I really work on the run maybe I could make up for his biking speed..hmmmm something to strive for=)

Oh one last thing before I go, people are noticing. So many people ask how I am doing it, compliment me, tell me what looks thinner. It almost is too much...almost.

WooHoo it was a good weigh in!

3.4 pounds this week!!!!!

I needed that to push me. I have 6.8 pounds to loose to officially see onderland(under 200 pounds for all you skinny folks). I want to see that number before thanksgiving weekend. Not that a pound either way will make a HUGE deal. But I would love to have my parents come in and be 199.8 or less.

I was roughly 195ish when I met my husband. He looks at this picture of me, and wants that!



Best part is I am 10 pounds from that picture. It is so close. I am excited to be below it so I will officially be thinner than I was since I was 21 years old. It is so close. I don't even remember what it was to be less than a size 12. I have one pair of pants that are a size 10 and the will soon be the next goal pants. Crazy to think I could be a size 10 at Christmas. It is so close.

My goal is 16.6 pounds from now till Christmas. I want to see 190 then. This will take work. The previous 3 weeks I slacked I lost only 3.6 pounds, With a little determination this week I almost doubled that. So all it will take is to get my arse in gear.

Oh and to let you know from now on my weight loss pictures will be me in a sports bra. This is hard for me because I have not showed my stomach in 15 years. So in 6.6 pounds lost (working towards that to be the Tuesday before Thanksgiving), I will be taking a picture of myself in a sports bra. I hope it will be more obvious that the shirt pictures easier to see what I am doing.

work work oh and more work

So this week has been going well. Sticking with the diet. Exercise is okay, 3 days of it, not as much as I wanted but better than the previous 2 weeks.

My life is pretty boring right now with weight loss. Just doing the normal, work outs, eating the normal foods. Today it will be a tuna casserole

Btw this is a great website period for some idea's. I have made many items from here, I love the tuna casserole and beef stroganoff.

I guess that is all not feeling too chatty, I am sure something will come to mind soon enough.

need some help from fellow bloggers

Okay I can not leave a comment on most blogs. Where I should be able to it just is a blank space. I can not write anything.

I feel horrible, because I have so much I want to say to everyone.

So if anyone knows what I am doing wrong let me know.

Oh and I woke up hurting today. It feels like I just started at the gym all over again. I think running outside is definitely harder. I plan on doing it again today.

I also went under my points for the first time in 3 weeks, I did NOT snack and snack and snack at night till I was over because I ate so much. It was only 3 points under, so I am not starving myself. It was a victory because I didn't feel the urge to eat more for the sake of eating more. I did this without Ryan here too!

I am starting to think exercise is my key to a good food day as well, I am glad I am getting back in the groove for both.

One last thing I want to announce ...it is very exciting, I HAVE RIBS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No gym but....

I ran 3 miles outside. It was the first time I have ever gone for the full 5k run outside. And let me tell you it hurts much more than a treadmill. First it is cold, second there are these little things called hills, and third I have no way to measure how fast or long I am running.

So I mapped 3 miles, ran the first 2 mainly, the walked the 3rd at a decent speed and finished in 42 minutes. I don't think that is too bad I want to shave 5 minutes off that in the next 3 weeks. So from now on I will be running outside getting ready for that cold Thanksgiving morning. I will use the gym as back up if it rains or Ryan gets home after dark. But my goal is to run the 3 miles outside atleast 2 times a week.

Okay so Ryan finally took my 210 pictures here they are....







230 and 220 pictures to compare

WORK OUT WORK OUT WORK OUT

Just yelling at myself to get my arse to the gym today....must go running the Turkey trot is in 3 weeks. If I plan on running 5 miles in less than an hour I must get working on it!

Everyone who reads this please comment with 4 little words




GO TO THE GYM!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks

my proof I am signed up now No turning back I am running an 8k.

Inspiration

So I was thinking about inspiration, motivation and things like that. If you read this blog often you know my inspiration is my Dad this time around. He is truly a great guy, I was always a daddy's girl, and I am pretty sure I was his favorite...sorry Colleen and James! Okay but seriously, my mom is wonderful, but I don't think she understands the pull food has over me. My dad does. I may be presumptuous with this, but I believe my dad knows the feeling of eating one meal, and already thinking of what you are going to eat next. He also gets the waste not want not mentality, I really don't need the last scoop of potatoes...but I don't want to trow it away so I will eat it. I think my dad gets the I can't just eat one small candy bar, because one will become 15. So when my dad lost all his weight it was an eye opener for me. And when he offered me the same opportunity, I took it.

I believe he knew that I was like him that if he could finally after 40 years do it he knew I could too. When they offered this time there was no accusation, no disapproval, just my dad(mom too) wanting me to be as happy as they are with the weight loss.

I also know my dad and I are similar in another aspect, we both start something, and are like a dog with a bone. Nothing will stop us we are too competitive to quit. When people notice we love it we like that positive reinforcement.

Now it comes to my dad maintaining, he will be my inspiration in that way as well. He has lost weight before, never this much and this healthy though, but had gained it back. I know this time he will keep it off, and if he can do it so can I. I also know if I struggle or even have a bad week, he knows those he will listen understand and most of all I don't have to be perfect. He won't bull sh*t me if I screw up, but he will understand. Even though I am in New York and he is in Michigan, I am so glad my dad is doing this too, and my inspiration.

The other day a girl I work with told me she joined Weight Watchers on line. She sees my transformation, and wants to lose as well. She is gorgeous too, and has no where near the weight loss I had to lose, but we have talked she gets the food pull. We talked about how we love food, and how we make the wrong choices, and how we can both over eat. I am so honored that she saw me losing, and wants to use me as an inspiration. The best part of her using me that way, is I don't ever want to let her down. If I gain all mine back, how can I support her to be the best she can be?

So in a round about way because I inspired a friend of mine, I now feel more inspired, it brought back my motivation to lose, something I was missing for 2 weeks.

I am so glad she did this for me(for herself too but mostly she did it for me), I only hope that I did the same for me dad. It is funny it is not competitive, its not like I want to lose more or beat them, I want both my friend to succeed probably more than she does! I want her to experience people saying how great she looks, because I know that she felt she could do it because I am....

So thanks dad and nameless friend but you know who you are=)))

Girls are in bed.

Sorry for the quick posts lately. I haven't been bad just not as good as the few weeks I lost 3 -5 pounds. I feel better though I feel the motivation coming back. I don't fight the urge to binge all the time right now. So laying off sugar was a positive thing.

But I will tell you it won't last for too long, the week I decided I would take a break from it, was the week Wegmans put there Weight watcher Ice cream on clearance. Not all of it but the ice cream cones, ice cream sandwiches, and little single ice cream servings. All for 1.50 and to ad too it weight watchers is giving out coupons, 55 cents off, which they then double! So I was paying 40 cents for weight watcher ice cream. I didn't go totally insane but I do have 7 boxes of ice cream in my deep freezer. Oh and I bought fat free caramel dip for my apple addiction. I promised myself this week if I work out I can have either a caramel apple, or an ice cream. I still have to stay within my daily points!

Not sure if I ever mentioned this but I never watched the Biggest Loser in past years...mainly because I didn't want to think about weight so I ignored anything that had to do with losing weight. Well this year since I started my journey around the time the show started I watch it every Tuesday, ironically also my weigh in day! I just have to say I think it is starting to annoy me to no end. I like Shay and want to root for her, but if I was still in college, I would make a drinking game every time she cries I would make people drink, by the end of the show EVERYONE would be drunk. Then to add to that I would also make everyone drink every time a contestant or trainer shamelessly plugs a product...seriously who says some of the stuff they say. Anyone else have any annoyances about the show? Or am I alone on this.

1.6 down

Okay so if I just watch what I eat I lose 1.6 pounds in a week not bad. I also know if I just work a little and exercise 5 days 45 minutes each day, I can lose 2.6.

So I did my goal this week took the sugar out, now this week I am going to add back considerable amounts of exercises.

Tomorrow I will have Ryan take a new 210 picture.

so...

Things Have been going okay. Yesterday was a great fall day so I took Riley for a run in the jogging stroller/bike trailer. She had a blast and kept yelling at me to go faster. I could prbably finish a 5k in 30 minutes with her in the stroller. To bad the turkey trot does not allow them=(

Speaking of the turkey trot, my friend Gretchen had to bow out, she hurt her knee, so that leaves Ryan running it with me. It will either be super fun to have Ryan or he will piss me off so much we won't talk the rest of the day. It is a toss up my husband is in amazing shape, at my fattest I am sure(and even know in some cases) people wondered what he was doing with me. He is very fit is the point, he can run 8 minute miles without even working at it, he just runs that as his slow speed. So if he thinks that is what I will be able to do he will be disappointed, and I will think I am not good enough, and a fight could happen. Or he will run with me say I am doing great and cheer me on, motivate me but not annoy me, and we will finish faster than I excpected and I will rave he is the best husband ever.

So I am a little worried about how it will go.

Diet has been going well, but truth time will be tomorrow.....