Saturday, November 14, 2009

New pants.

Today I wore pants that I bought 3 years ago! Pants that never fit. And when I mean never fit I mean there was 6 inches from button to button. They are the type of pants that also have no "give" they don't stretch at all, like jeans and some khakis do. So today I wore them and right now just noticed they didn't even leave the fat marks. They are also just tight enough to remind me to not pick at french fries.

My friend also sold me her size 12 old navy jeans. Funny thing is I just washed then and they fit perfect, 1 day of wear they can slide up and down without buttoning them! I could be wearing some size 10 by Christmas. I wasn't say I will be a size ten but I can see a few old navy 10 jeans in my near future.

As I have mentioned before I have a strange body shape, so I am still a size 16 in dresses. I have an 18w dress in my basement that is huge on me, but not too huge so I am assuming a 16w would fit me perfect.

I am so excited for thanksgiving my mom is bringing some of her old clothes. I have no desire to pay full price for any clothes, so cast offs are good enough for me. I have no pride! I used to just buy clothes because they fit and no other reason. I would go to Old Navy, or some such store find a shirt that was long so no one could see my stomach if I reached, Wasn't so tight you could see fat rolls, not too loose I that I would look like I was wearing a tent(I now see they all looked like tents), and when I would find all that I would buy 3-5 of those shirts. Winter was my favorite season because big bulky sweaters, and sweatshirts could come out. During the summer I had Capri's, I haven't worn a pair of shorts in 4 years. I have to say part of me is a little worried about style and losing weight. As you can see buying for style is a completely foreign idea.

I have never, even during my skinnier days, been able to walk into a store and know that most everything will fit me. I am excited and nervous for that, excited because shopping for myself will be fun again, and nervous because I don't know what I will even buy. I am hoping this summer when the weight is all gone, my sister will be in town and can help me with this dilemma.

But as for now this is all a future thought. For now cast offs are perfect and I can't wait for new ones=)


SunflowerDaisies said...

That's awesome that you're able to fit into those pants! It's a really great feeling. :-)

Anonymous said...

(from Rene, my AIM screen name isnt working)

good job on the pants!! i have to admit that my love of hoodies came from being heavy in high school. I felt that they "hid" everything (including my boobs) but they still made me look fat.

I can't help but still wear them when i'm having a 'fat day' because i may still think they conceal whatever i'm feeling insecure about that day!!!

karen@fitnessjourney said...

That must feel so good. I'm so happy for your success.

You may want to take a look at Target or even a thrift store for some basic pieces like a cardigan sweater, black pants, a white blouse... and just buy some trendier accessories, like scarves, to go with them. That way you can still use the accessories as your weight goes down.

Jenn said...

Wow, that's great! I love it when I can pull something out of my closet that I haven't been able to wear for years...and it fits!
Time for you to go shopping, my dear!