I have never been a fan of Veggie Burgers I tried a few in the past, would eat one and the rest would sit in the freezer till I threw them out. But the other day looking at them in frozen food section I saw Gardenburger Chipolte Black Bean, I love spicy foods so I thought I would give them a try, put an ounce of reduced fat cheese, and salsa, put it on a multi-grain Arnold's sandwich thin roll, and oh my it is amazing all just 4 points. I could eat 10 of them, but I do limit 1 per lunch and an apple or some fruit.
As you probably could tell I was a little down on myself the past couple of days, I saw the pictures of me and saw a really fat person. I am weird when I look in a mirror I don't see myself that way, I think I don't look any different than I did before I ever had children. If i weigh 250, or 200, or even 170 I see the same person in the mirror, so its hard for me to gage what I look like, till I see pictures. That is why I think I avoided pictures so much if I didn't have any I could deny in my head that I am fat. So yes it was an eye opener to look and face the facts, but I am proud of my self for one thing! I didn't let it take me off track, I had some positive comments, I from 2 bloggers that have been where I am and have gotten to the end of their journey's, so from them I found some strength to say its only the beginning, and I can do it. I never binged! I didn't give up (like I have in the past), Sure I was down about it but I found that I have the strength to be upset and not turn to food for comfort. Almost a month in to it and I have not fallen off the wagon, with the exception of 1 time I have not touched my flex points.
So yes I am disappointed in myself that I let food take over so much that I got fat fat fat, but I am also proud to have found a strength to change my eating, enjoy new foods, and stay on track!