Start with the good today.
Today I had my reward gift to myself. I got a pedicure, I have only had 2 before one when I got married, and another when I was 9 months pregnant with Sophie. I told myself when I reached 10% lost I would get another one.
First of all my parents got me a trailer for a bike, that can also double as a jogging stroller. It is Sophie's Christmas present, they are really truly with me on this it is a great feeling. They are paying for my first 2 months of weight watchers(what actually means 3 months because you get 1 free), my running shoes, and now the jogger/trailer. I can't say it enough I have the best parents.
So that is why I am hoping what i saw today is not so...I went to my weigh in early because I might work tomorrow. I went in after i cooked and ate a huge meal, I was also in jeans, blah blah I am making excuses...the thing is I gained this week I think .2 pounds. Yes point 2 but I have been doing so well, working so hard that it might as well be 20 pounds. So I hope I can walk tomorrow to the weigh in and maybe act as if I never did this and see a small weight loss tomorrow.
So my reaction, I am depressed, sad, I was feeling so good about myself today when I was pulling my jeans up and down without unbuttoning them, and now this. So what am I going to do? I figure I have 3 options....
1. Go buy 40 dollars worth of bad food eat it all right now while my husband is out with friends.
2. Keep going the way I have, hope its a fluke and make no changes.
3. Join the YMCA tomorrow, focus on really tracking, measuring, and eating more fruits and veggies and less fiber 1 bars.
I am choosing option 3! I think I am at a point where its really going to take work to lose more. I have been having fun losing so much so fast, but I knew it wouldn't last, I hoped it would keep going but that was a hope, and I am not hoping on this journey I am working it. I have my parents, my husband, my friends, and blogger world all rooting for me, I am not going to let this set back beat me, I am just going to work hard to make sure it never happens again.
So I am sorry to all that I have let down, but most of all I feel I let down myself. So this week my focus will be on joining the YMCA, working out more than I did this week. Also I will buy a food scale, I have been losing so much each week I kept putting it off, now I think I have too. I will work on my portion control. I will incorporate more fruits and veggies into my meals and snacks. I am also going to stop late night snacking, after 9 pm if I have left over points too bad, they are gone to me.
So that's that....sorry to all rooting for me I don't seem to have good news this week=(